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I injured my shoulders from flag football and kept putting cold patches on for fast recovery. I basically stank up the studio. Apologies for that ๐ But one day, I started coughing like crazy. I caught a cold from my students but I didn't think it was a big deal. I normally try to sweat the cold off in the gym for fast recovery. So I did just that. However, my body just went weaker and weaker. I ended up going to the hospital so that I can play flag football. I got myself checked out, got my meds, and went to play flag football - drugged up with meds and managed to play two sacks that day. Yay me! But I just started shaking like crazy one day. My head was pounding and my jaw started hurting this time. This was not normal and my cold wasn't getting any better. I got myself checked out again and I was told that I have a really bad throat infection. I was speechless! My voice is my life! By this point, I was impatient, angry, annoyed, sad.... If I had experienced all this separately - and not one right after another - I think I would've been fine. But it was because I wasn't getting any better... I felt like giving up. I felt useless and extremely tired of fighting.
To cheer me up, my boyfriend and I decided to do something spontaneous. We booked a flight to Phuket. It was our first time going there so we were excited but also scared. However, we were getting a lot of support from our friends and people were making sure that I was healthy and safe while we were there. That's when I realized how truly blessed I am.
This trip really allowed me to do some self reflection. I think I was too focused on so many unimportant things that I didn't realize the good things! I feel guilty for allowing myself to be negative from time to time. I was over-working! I was also making sure other people were doing ok and not allowing myself to just... breathe! I realized the importance of self-care and how much I need that in order to stay positive and be st